OMG!
17 november was a BLAST.
hahah, really got to admit.

okay, yea. i know ive not been devoted to my little blogg here but hey. at least i still "pop" by what. lolls.

gonna put up a new blog soon. (not sure yet) cause this one kinda sucks.
anyways, mr moo.. thank you tonnes for friday night man.
i know you wont exactly read this cause youre supposedly banned from my sites but yea. THANKIE YOUIE!

ohwells, im going off now.
blogger next time.

been really tired lately.
been busy and home late all week!

now working my butt off to earn a little extra so that i can buy more stuffs! (:
but yea, its kinda tough luh. sighs.

its like so DAMN perfect!
if only i was like older now?!

ive got a human job @ the argtscafe, esplanade.
ive got my odd job @ elle elite as a model.
ive got my loving boyfriend who wouldnt let me go.
hahah.
im loving it, oh so badly! hahah.

BRIAN TEO! i love you tonnes!

but wells, like stephen said... nothing lasts forever.
somehow i feel like.. although steph and i are totally different in many ways.. we still click well.
i know its cliche to say that were so close and yet so far.. but yea. WE ARE!
im really upset that heather and him arent getting married anymore,
its a SAD SAD situation.
and i, not being his ex girlfriend or whatever.. but just as a friend. need to be there for him.

im glad ive got stephen and leon with me (:
i mean. yea, i do have my darling brian but things are different.
i cant blurt out my super innermost feelings cause i know brian cant accept or learn to listen to somethings i have to say.
like modelling pisses him off. and hearing about me and any guy [be it in photoshoots or in my own social life] pisses him off.
i cant talk to him freely ):
its like i have to know when and what to say.
cause i know if i dont keep somethings away from him.
he'll get hurt. and that will be my bad.

LEON LIM JIONG RUI [LLJR]
i know leon was protective to a point that he got over-protective over everything and every male i talk to.
but yea, he had his PMSes and stuff.
but he changed gradually because of his change in attitude and clique of friends.
so that was quite understandable.
but than again. he was never a man of his word.
he always lied to cover up his mistakes or follies.
and dispite being with me, he had other girls to perk him up.
i know i was stupid to still stick with him.
but yea, he slept with


and yea, STEPHEN...
hes still that guy i used to like.
hes so gentle and never harsh. hes someone that can never compare to brian or leon.

oh wells. i shall stop this and BE GLADD!
ive been loved. yay!

saturday and sunday was GREAT! hahah.

THE WEDDING
saturday was fun, i got to meet evangeline and her groupies (cheryl, desiree, etc)
went quite early to do up last minute arrangements which i had a hell of a time with justin and jonathan! hahah. quite cool luh. yea.
than i went out to the counter to do my "duty" in making the guests sign the wedding guestbook (: like tell them which pen colour to use on each coloured page [cause some colours really clash with the background]
when the guests arrived, it started off slow. hahah. evan and i predicted the time the guests would arrive. and they did! VERY PROMPTLY. hahah. it was stupid luh.
jonathan changed into his shirt (double layer; and complaining of the heat) and poor justin... hahah. he had to wait for his parents to bring his shirt along. [in which, they were a little late]
after the walk in of the bride and groom, i had to look after little jon. hes really cute luh. blurr sotong but really nice luh x))
after the entire thing, HAHAH. justin, jonathan and i went to hogg the CHOCOLATE FAUNDU @ the fruits and such table. like DUH, its the CHOCOLATE FOUNTAIN! ahh. glorious! yea, than later we went to snap photos (: that was that for saturday wedding.

[after the wedding, jonathan and i did our little farewell, though we were gonna see each other the next day, but yea. hahah. than i went to church! stayed in the service for a little while and left to meet brian.]

THE CHALET
brian never fails to make me wait.. and i waited for one and a half hours luh ALONE @ the three five four busstop. damn pissed. but yea. what to do?? yea. when we met, we took a slow walk to S09 and met the rest. including this super annoying girl named CANDY. (pukey name, but yea)
things started off slow because i was still upset a little but haha. something happened that we didnt expect that changed the ENTIRE scenerio. yea. they were like playing watere bombs, three humans among themselves. and the thing was, brian and i sat on the curb. we werent talking or anything until.. SPLAT! both of us got wet. stupid bitch, candy (kenneths new found gf, bloody fat luh), anyways... she "accidentally" burst one at us. my hiar, the back of my shirt, brians left sleeve and his face got wet! hahah. (brian was looking at them and saw the stupid thing burst luh.) it was super dumb luh. but at least that broke the ice between us and he like smiled. and yea. things went better after that. but watever, CANDY YOU BITCH! my hair was perfect brfore YOU friggin destroyed it luh. i managed to save my hair in a pretty condition since the wedding until she burst the dumb water bomb and spoilt EVERYTHING. arghs. i could almost kill her there and than.

everything else that happened.. ill continue de. hahah. (ANOTHER DAY)
loves you people! mwahxx.

kinda upset that im not around LLJR anymore. and his call and sudden sms on sunday morning @ 3plus AM was a total reminder that i liked him.

i know its time to move on and things like that but yea. i cant possibly lie to myself and say that 3 1/2 years of my life dissppered right? gosh, this is SO not right.

anyways. LLJR, its okay alright? you can honestly just call or whatever. ive just got to take things in my stride and say "we are just friends" and like not think about the past everytime i see you or talk to you, etc... yubbs. it sort of just the living reality that ive got to face up to and be STRONG! hahah.

LLJR, dont do it alr okay? it hurts your friends, your pretty mom and me too. so please, pretty please? at least for our sake, TRY!

ooh. todays gonna be a GORGEOUS DAY! wheeets.
its khim and terrences wedding and im like all geared up and prepared to be the guestbook attendant for today (:
hahah.

i hope the guests will like appreciated my work luh. it was really time consuming and tough okay? but i believe that yea. its for a good cause... KHIMS wedding! yay!

hahah. really happy now.
gonna meet my dearies JUSTIN HUI and JONATHAN MA now. whee.
hopefully today, id get to meet my mysterious caller, evangeline tan. hahah. bet shes as nice as she sounds over the phone luh. teehee.
ohwells, got to pack my stuff and go now. ciao!

btw, HAPPY BIRTHDAY BENJAMIN LEE WEI CHUNG! hahah.
see you @ the chalet later yea? lovelove~

hehe. tonight was absolutely fun.
especially with jonathan and justin around. :DDD
tonight was just the setting up of the main decorations in preparations for tomorrows wedding function (:
i cannot wait till the guests arrive and stand in awe in the sanctuary! hahah. BHB-ness.

had a little teamwork problems cause "miss know-it-all" never completed any of her tasks given to her. she like was supposed to drap cloth of the pews which she did not complete and made a toal mess of the first half anyway, curled the ribbons and didnt tear them into halves, cut apricoms and decided to give up because of her "pretty (ugly) manicure" and tie the flowers which she in the end gave to the sweet plump lady to do. hahah. im like kinda mean naming tham this way cause i just get so mixed up with their names. hah. yea. and "miss perfectionist-wannabe" never got anything right. kept complaining that she didnt know and wasnt doing a great job fulffing the cloth when it was practically ALREADY fluffed up luh. i was like OHMYGOD!

yea. but after the entire day (night) hahah. it was great luh. marcus drove jus, jon, my mom and i back to pasir ris where we had a little bite @ mcdonalds. hahah. gave a old mcdonalds aunty a gerbera cause she thought it was pretty. hahah. what a glow she had on her face luh. MAN!

yea than we took a cab home. hahah. ohwells. i might just go to sleep now.
hmm. i miss BRIAN TEO! i might go look for him vis phone(s) now. ciao.

MICHELLE BRANCH- goodbye to you

[hey, you know who you are.]
im sorry alright? i still love you dardar.

Of all the things I believe in
I just want to get it over with
tears from behind my eyes
but I do not cry
Counting the days that past me by

I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
Looks like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend

and I say
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything that I knew
You were the one I love
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems like I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes till you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light
but it's not right

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything that I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

Ohhh yeah
It hurts to want everything & nothing at the same time
I want whats yours and I want whats mine
I want you but I'm not giving in this time

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything that I knew
you were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything that I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

and when the stars fall and I lie awake
youre my shooting star

rahh.
ATTEMPTED to train today. (not good)
but ohwells, went to school at 1230 around there to meet ms kaur to pick up my REPORT BOOK!
**okay, now people. dont expect me to download or whatevr my results on my blog ar/ cause if you are... SHAME ON YOU**
hahahahahah.

hmm. met up with brians gang. went to block 163 to celebrate afiq (pretty eyes) birthday. waited like until 1400plus for the cake to arrive.
teehee.
brought by anirah and jannah. yubs.

yea.
BRIAN MISSED THE TABLE! hahah.
shhh. its a "private-cum-secret joke"
aka; VERY HILARIOUS!
(dont worry audrey, ill tell you when you remind me)

hmm. yea. than after the laadeedums, took 59 home luh.
got this new indian driver [handsome seh] x)
than yea. he missed the turning luh cann?
all the ah pehs and the aunty aunty scold him.
hahah.
PAISEH!
yea. than he apologised and u-turned back.
super funny luh.

hmms.
today, khims wedding flowers delivery got problems. hais.
no stock of flowers that we ordered, and so we gotta get the common local malaysia, china ones instead.
its not as nice luh but yea, we had to work with what we had luh.
sigh.

made a BIG BIG BIG bouquet for audrey cause I LOVE HER!
hahahah.
[i bet audreys smiling now (:]
and yea. i made it MYSELF!
hey, dont complain luh hors.


expensive flowers + pretty hands who made it -> ALOT of cuts from torns and sticks ar.

you BETTER appreciate it.
hey, this is ONLY one of the few times that id be spending alot of cash on you seh. hahah.
im not financially very stable can? dont know why everybody thinks im rich. =.=

ive got branded stuff and all but that doesnt mean anything what.
SHEESH.
hahah.
ohwells, i got to stop here alr.
going to prepare myself for a TD calender photoshoot. than going to trueway church at queenstown to set up things for the wedding tomorrow.
yubbs. (:
oh yea! SHIT.
i still got to pack my stuffs for bennys chalet tomorrow.
oooh. got to go.
-rushes my typing-


oh yeah, one more VERY IMPORTANT thing before i publish this post..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARLING LEON LIM JIONG RUI [LLJR]
read by 2 backed posts, its under your dedications :DD
love you tonnes didi,
LOVE~ your jiejie (:

LUN WEIMING!
thank you truckloads.

youre a lifesaver (:
hahah.

xoxoxo.
MUACKS~